Jessie - Jesse

"Mother's Heart" by Laurie Justus Pace

Jessie - Jesse

so desperately  

I did want you to live

to be brought forth

into this world

my own existence became unimportant

with a joyful smile

I would have gladly have given my life

for yours

if doing so would have – could have, saved you

Jessie – Jesse

you flew away

in spite of my pleading, fervent prayers

unknowingly, I spoke into God's deaf ear
he, so stony and remote

who would not/did not hear me

I

was

lost

abandoned

sentenced to remain

empty

my womb

my soul

my mind

only the grief

multiplying daily

filled the space

as the sole

flourishing

green shoot

Jessie – Jesse

I so adored you

Inexplicably … as soon as I knew

that you grew within me

I had waited

many

long years

for you

Exultant thrill

sheer delight

in watching my belly grow

knowing you were strong

to feel your quickening

kicking

to hear your heartbeat

 

Jessie - Jesse

you came too early

could not survive

my beloved

wanted

beautiful baby

gone

I have missed you

every single day since

I still hold you close

here, in my heart

my very own

sweet, wonderful

Jessie - Jesse